Heart Of Palm, In Five Sections

A few people have mentioned curiosity about the photography side of this project, so rather than detail the production of the dish itself (I cooked a bunch of shit, then plated it. It was hard.), I thought I might talk a little about the other side of things for me. Since moving to the Bay Area (with a little less dedicated photography space) I’ve made quite a bit of use of a light tent, which I expound on a bit in this post. For this dish I wanted to get out some of my other gear and play with it a bit. Specifically, I wanted to work with my softbox. I have this model:

A softbox is nice for representing a large area of light, rather like a window or a skylight. My softbox is small enough to be ‘portable’ but big enough to be a pain in the ass to set up in our small dining area, which is why I don’t use it a ton. It’s great for portraiture, but it splashes light around everywhere so can be a little tough to use in small spaces.

A good softbox is nicer than my light tent because of the very lovely quality of light it provides. I use my softbox with a small, portable flash usually mounted on a camera (these are called “strobes”, not because they oscillate on and off like a 70′s disco but because they ‘flash’, rather than staying on all the time. Think high school senior portrait rather than super-hot garage work light). I tuck the strobe into a small opening at the rear of the softbox, like so:

I like this particular softbox because as you can see it’s got an inner sheet that obfuscates the light, in addition to another outer sheet (not pictured, I attach it later); this offers very soft, broad lighting. This comes at a cost of a slight loss of light intensity, but that’s easily-correctable. My light tent is much smaller and easier to set up/break down, but it only offers one diffusion layer between my subject  and the light, so the light isn’t quite as soft.

For my shot setup, I laid out two layers of fine linen on the table. I spent about 30 minutes ironing the linen so that it was very flat and smooth. I have a black tri-fold backdrop I made with black tape and foam core that I set up as a background; it’s built sort of like how you built your science fair project posters back in the day (you can see it sitting near the table in the lower right of frame there):

Here’s an early test shot on my linen with the foam core backdrop and a bare strobe light. Note that the strobe when used on its own sort of looks like a really harsh spotlight. It offers very crisp, sharp shadows, which look garish and make clear where the light is coming from. This kind of lighting is ok if I wanted something really dramatic, but I don’t really love its harshness in this context, so I generally try to avoid it for this particular project.

Here’s the same setup, except I’m using the softbox. Note how the shadows now become very soft and the light has a bit more of a ‘wash’ quality to it. It feels more natural and also more sensual, which is what I’m after. Things look a little more delicate. One can simulate the same thing by plating something near a large window; a window offers soft shadows like this, and there’s a slight blue tint from the daylight that I’m capturing a bit here with my lights. Note how the texture in the linen looks a little softer…more touchable.

I decide to add a piece of white foamcore to the right side of the table, outside the right of frame. When the light coming in from the left hits this, it bounces off of it back into my scene, which fills in darker areas. If I used something more reflective (like, say, a mirror or a cookie tin), I’d get more of a focused bounce; the white foam core diffuses the light again, which makes things even softer. This is a matter of preference; I like very soft light, so I choose to go this route. Here’s what the foam core offers; notice the right side of the pedestal bases is a bit brighter, and the shadows they cast have been a bit faded towards the right side of frame.

I like the quality of my light, but the white linen against the black foamcore background is giving me a horizon line. This is distracting to me; if I don’t carefully-place that horizon line (by shifting the camera up or down) it can cause a sense of tension, which undoes the nice softness my light is giving me. I try replacing the black foamcore with a piece of white foamcore:

This is better, but I still have a line there. It’s very soft, but to me it’s distracting. I opt to make what’s called a “seamless backdrop”; this is where the ‘floor’ of a scene bends up to become the background of the scene, which eliminates harsh horizon lines like the ones we see here. Sometimes you see these referred to as “infinity backgrounds”; the idea is to create the illusion that the floor of the scene extends back into infinity. I made this by using some bulldog clips to clip the back edge of my linen to the black foamcore backdrop:

I also use some painter’s tape to hold the foam core in place, so that the weight of the linen doesn’t pull it around. Painter’s tape is rad because it comes off very cleanly, without tearing up my foamcore.

Here’s the final setup I arrive at. Note the actual size of the pedestals, as well as the placement of the white bounce card. It’s extremely frequently that I end up with a setup like this–one that requires me to contort myself around a light stand or something to actually get the camera where I need it to be.

A side note: you can see I’m building up a very white environment for these shots; the softbox works well in this case because it scatters so much light everywhere. If I wanted a solid black environment, the softbox becomes way harder to control. I’d want light on the pedestals but not on the foamcore background. Usually this means I need more space, to move the foamcore away from the light. This is why I don’t shoot many darker environments with this lighting setup in our current apartment…I need sort of a long, deep room to get that working well.

Now that I think I’m happy with the lighting, I try a few test shots that more-closely approximate the final composition I want. I like shooting the food the way one might shoot either landscapes or architecture. Usually for either of these we’re looking either eye-level or up at things; there’s a sense of awe and beauty that photographers usually try to convey with landscape or architecture photography, and I think it suits this food nicely. Compositionally, this means I want to get my camera low and as close to the food as possible; I want the composition to be immersive.

Because I’m shooting tiny things with a macro lens (a Canon 50mm macro, as well as a Canon 100mm macro…I switch back and forth a lot but usually stick to just those two lenses), I get a very shallow depth of field (e.g. lots of ‘blur’). This is a product of being very, very close to the subject I’m shooting. Usually with landscapes or architecture, you’re not very close to the subject, so everything’s in focus. I kinda like the unexpected juxtaposition of these two things here.


Now, how about some actual photos of food?

These 5 bites are lined up in the order in which they’re eaten. I simmered fresh hearts of palm in water seasoned with sugar and salt, then cut them into small cylinders and used a chopstick to help poke out the central sections, leaving just the outer ring. I filled the first of these rings with a ‘vanilla pudding’; this stuff is totally amazing. Basically I made vanilla ice cream–i.e. vanilla, egg, cream, milk, sugar, cooked into a custard. The custard was augmented with agar, which helps the texture remain stable at room temperature. It’s wild; it tastes like room-temperature ice cream in both taste and texture. The ring is topped with avocado dice, a vanilla-lime vinaigrette, and a ring of Thai chili.

The taste of all of this together is drop-dead delicious. There’s a sweetness to Thai chili I never knew existed, but that shines brightly with the vanilla custard and compliments it well. It’s a slightly sweet bite; the heart of palm is crunchy and fresh, but most of what I taste is vanilla and chili. This one might be my favorite.

Next we have a palm ring filled with fava bean puree. Breaking and peeling 500g of fava beans for this recipe takes…no small amount of time. The beans are cooked and pureed with oil and seasoned with salt before filling the palm cylinder. The bite is topped with preserved meyer lemon skin (that little yellow loop there? That took 3 months to make), a meyer lemon vinaigrette, and I put a broccoli rabe blossom on there just for funsies.


This bite tasted lovely, citrusy, springtime-y. The fava bean as a unique and definite flavor, though I can’t really articulate it. It tastes…’green’. And fresh.The Meyer lemon peel is tart, sweet-salty, tangy. This on might be my favorite.


Next we have a bite filled with a bulgur salad, topped with a chive and a garlic chip. The bulgur salad is made from cooked bulgur wheat mixed with a freaking awesome roasted garlic mayonnaise (roast garlic, puree with some vinegar and a lot of grapeseed oil) and some chopped chives. The stuff is delicious.


The garlic chip starts as several cloves of elephant garlic that get blanched in milk, pureed, smeared on a dehydrator tray and dehydrated for several hours, then broken into small, paper-thin crisps. They’re crunchy like a tiny little potato chip, but salty and season-y and compliment the bulgur salad perfectly. This one was definitely my favorite.


The 4th bite is a palm heart filled with prune puree. I boiled the prunes multiple times in water until very tender, then pureed with a tiny bit of vinegar until smooth and sturdy.


The bite is topped with minced dehydrated nicoise olive. The olive chunks are topped with a pretty-amazing coffee/sherry-vinegar syrup. This stuff is mind-blowing; it’s sweet and tangy and coffee-y…I need to remember these flavors for making a bbq sauce sometime later. Overall this bite is magic; the tang from the olive and syrup hit the tongue first, then give way to the sweetness of the prune and sugar in the coffee syrup. It’s sort of like listening to a person build a chord on the piano one note at a time; the flavors just keep adding up to a nice harmony. Hands-down my favorite one.


The final bite involves a black truffle and pumpernickel puree. This is made with black truffle juice warmed with pumpernickel bread and mixed with an immersion blender until the bread causes a paste to form. The bite is topped with a vinaigrette made with black truffle, sherry vinegar, and oil. I was meant to also garnish the bite with a thin slice of fresh Perigord black truffle, but given the expense of this past week I opted to skimp on it, replacing it with a dot of pudding made from more black truffle juice. My adoration of black truffle probably made this one my favorite.

I love this dish! It’s so damn pretty, way less finicky to get working than I expected, and the flavor combinations were all a total surprise, even in the face of tasting everything copiously as I went. Almost everything turned out tasting bang-on the first try (I had to add way more pumpernickel bread to the truffle juice to get it to form a paste, and even then it had a tendency to want to ooze more easily than the others, but it still tasted great). This is a good way to start off the Spring menu.

 

Next: El Bulli

For over two years now, Sarah has been carefully keeping a data collection of our eating-out habits. She logs every receipt, notes what we both ordered, and then we rank the experience; her goal is to visualize this data artistically, possibly highlighting patterns or features that we might find interesting and seeing what we can learn about our habits and preferences. The ranking part of things originally started as a scale of 1 to 3: “1″ was “definitely wouldn’t eat there again” and “3″ was “All the way awesome.” We found this compelling because it meant places like Cafe Polo in Wellington would stand next to places like Alinea if we anonymized the names of all the restaurants. We eventually moved to a 1-4 scale, because a good deal of the places we ate were “just ok”, and we felt we needed a hair more granularity to hint at whether we’d choose to eat at a certain place again or not.  ”2″ is “Eh, not terrible, but I probably wouldn’t do it again” and “3″ is “Yeah, pretty ok, I’d try it again”. An interesting question that’s arisen during this is “If you had that same amount of money to spend, would you spend it there again?”, and we now ask ourselves this for every meal we eat.

This past Wednesday, Sarah, myself, my sister and three friends all flew to Chicago from various locations to dine at Next for their current El Bulli menu.

If you worry I’m going to launch into a detailed play-by-play of our meal, please don’t. The food was good, the beverage pairings really good, and while I’ll elaborate on this in a moment, it will be only slightly.

I’ve been excited to dine at Next since it opened. Having gotten to play an extremely tiny but awesome role in the early days of it’s launch, I’ve had a slight emotional investment in it as its grown, and have always kept my eye open for an opportunity to visit. I also, for obvious reasons, have an acute fascination with El Bulli itself; I tried for years to secure a reservation at the restaurant (all unsuccessful), and its closing–that finality of knowing I’d never get to experience firsthand something that clearly represents a cultural revolution–was a little heartbreaking for me. So when Next announced that this menu would be an homage to El Bulli, my interest in visiting went from “next time we’re in Chicago we should try to check it out” to “This is a moral imperative.”

I don’t fly to Chicago terribly often; it’s expensive and mandates me taking time off work to spend any significant amount of time there. But for this very special, once-in-a-lifetime thing, I decided I was all in. I convinced Sarah and four other great people that this meal at the Kitchen Table at Next on a Wednesday Night would be worth not only its own total value of $2863, but also worth the nearly $600 per-person extra it would cost each of us to fly in and stay in a hotel for 2 nights. This is not an insignificant sum for any of us at all.

I find that the thing that tends to earn eating-out experiences the highest marks on our spreadsheet and poshest vaults in our memory banks isn’t really only the food. We tend to ask ourselves to regard the experience as a whole. Of course the food should be great, but usually there’s an element of magic involved beyond just the edible that causes us to leave feeling dizzy and bursting with gratefulness. Our most recent rating of “4″ for ourselves (there aren’t many; barely enough to count on one hand) was Plum in downtown Oakland. We sat at the bar (our favorite–I like to watch everyone as they craft the dishes); the chefs picked up quickly that I have more than a passing interest in cooking and started offering us introductions to specific ingredients or extra plates of this or that, encouraging us to taste everything. They were eager to talk with me about techniques and ingredients, geeking out with me at one point about how awesome fresh garbanzo beans look. The pastry chef stopped work during a flurry of dessert orders to talk shop with Sarah a bit about a crumb crust we had and loved (Sarah is to baking what I am to Alinea-cookbooking). The staff was effusive, honest, approachable, perfectly lovely. We left feeling as though we’d just made some new friends.

I like to think (and hope it’s not delusional to do so) that my sincere gratitude, enthusiasm and interest for their work made more of an impression on their night than did the gratuity we left.  I think it’s a natural and honest thing for a person to want to surround themselves with other people with shared interests and passions…this is generally how I regard good friendships. I wasn’t interested in edging for special treatment by the chefs (“schmoozing” isn’t my style) so much as I was geeking out with people who like the same things I do, and I choose to believe they weren’t interested in edging for a fat tip from me so much as enjoying someone taking genuine interest in the minutiae of their work. Enthusiasm begets enthusiasm, and I find that a precious and delightful enough gift to want to share it recklessly.

(I understand that the above sentiment, in the wrong light, implies I think saying “thanks” precludes the need to leave a gratuity. No, I am not suggesting this. But I would imagine tips are more forgettable than enthusiasm.)

Of course, it goes without saying that our first meal at Alinea created in both of us these same feelings; the food was amazing of course, but the experience was so much more than that. It painted an ideal, it set a bar, it codified a perspective that is so compelling and sincere that I’ve felt strongly enough about it to embrace it nearly every day for years (if it’s not obvious, this project demands way more consideration time than just that of weekends). Even awesomer, we walked away from our second meal at Alinea feeling exactly the same way.

Given the way I tend to think about things, the amount of consideration and deliberation I put into choosing to go to this meal, and the cost involved for me and my friends…it should probably be obvious that my expectations were a little on the high side.  I hoped for magic.

Unfortunately, I didn’t quite experience that at Next.

The Kitchen Table at Next is a large round table behind a wall of glass that looks into the kitchen; one is meant to be able to watch the magic happening right there, just inches away.  It’s special in that it’s meant to allow a relationship to exist between the kitchen and we, the diners, but the terms of that relationship weren’t what I hoped for.

One of the first courses of the evening was presented tableside by the executive chef of Next, Dave Beran. He appeared behind a cart lined with smoking vessels of liquid nitrogen, and without much in the way of greeting/welcoming/acknowledging us he launched into stirring and mixing and ‘doing stuff’. In a quiet moment, I (sitting immediately near his right arm) offered congratulations for the recent (Monday evening) win by the restaurant of a James Beard award (for “Best New Restaurant”). In general, lay people have as little reason to know about this award as they do knowing about VES awards for visual effects artists; I hoped my mention of it would suggest to him that I noticed and cared about the intricacies of his work. Without looking up he responded somberly “Yeah, 1 out of 3 isn’t bad I guess” (1 of the 3 nominations was for him personally, Chef Beran, for Rising Star Chef, which was won instead by Christina Tosi of Momofuku Milk Bar). I couldn’t tell if my attempt at giving him a verbal slap on the back offended him or if he felt it was ill-offered or what, but I immediately felt self-conscious and apologetic. For the duration of our meal my impressions of him were that he was relatively disaffected and didn’t really care much at all about conveying a sense of welcome or warmth to the one table in the restaurant he could have easily done so. He spent most of the evening checking his phone or scowling gently at people entering/leaving the kitchen, or at us. There were a few moments when diners were allowed into the kitchen to greet him and get a glimpse of our luxurious view of the kitchen in full action,each of which he paused to speak with before resuming his duties.

The experience of sitting at the Kitchen Table as a whole was a slightly stressful one for me, I found. The chefs shot us concerned glances every few minutes, smileless and scowling…no doubt they were minding the timing of what I know is an incredibly-complex 29-course menu, but I felt less like a guest and more like a specimen, and the barrier between us felt thicker than the plate glass suggested it should. There was no sense of shared enthusiasm, no nod from the action side of the glass that said “Hey, thanks for thinking what we’re doing is rad.”

When Francisco rose at one point to go to the men’s room, it touched off a flurry of points and in-ear whispers and snapped glances at us as they threw the production line into a holding pattern. This I know is standard operating procedure at a high-end place like Next, but God I felt fucking terrible watching it happen. All I could think was “Shit, we just wrecked their next half hour”. Worrying about being wrong for needing to pee isn’t very fun; a part of me hoped they’d built an intermission into the pace of things or otherwise anticipated the inevitable call of nature that accompanies a 29-course wine tasting bonanza, but they had not.

Because some of the seats at the table face away from the kitchen, my friends decided a nice thing might be to trade places halfway through the meal (they chose to action this during a moment when some of us were in the restroom, in an attempt to minimize interruptions to the staff’s flow). Doing this might as well have been akin to whipping out a pile of dynamite and sitting in near the rose vase centerpiece, such was the wave of glances of concern and scrutiny set loose amongst the waitstaff and chefs. I was torn between wanting to apologize profusely for overcomplicating things momentarily and wondering “wait, is this really unreasonable of us? Because Sarah, who’s put up with me talking about this meal for months, has her back to the window and I’d like for her to be able to see some of what’s going on behind her.” Of course no one on the staff openly suggested it was unreasonable of us; I admit this might have been just my own paranoia and clumsy attempt to empathize with them.

The waitstaff themselves were perfectly great; our main waiters were attentive if a little stiff (one’s sense of humor and tone bordered the condescending for my taste), but much of what they had to say felt over-rehearsed and lackluster. I went to see a stand-up performance by Mike Birbiglia once, a comedian who’s hailed for his casual way of storytelling. His routine had the trappings of casual storytelling, but the surgical placement and timing of pregnant pauses and enunciations made it clear that this ‘casual conversation’ was a finely-polished one, and there was no magic to it. So it was with the waitstaff. This meal is meant to sort of be a retrospective history of El Bulli, or as Nick Kokonas described it on Facebook once, “a celebration”. I have several books about El Bulli, have seen the documentary “Cooking, In Progress” 3 times, and in general have a pretty decent understanding of the restaurant; in short, I’ve ‘read the brochure’. But I was greatly looking forward to hearing intricacies of how it was for Next to work with the chefs of El Bulli to recreate things, what problems and collaborations arose from one team striving to replicate and honor the work of another, etc. I mean, their story with El Bulli is my story with Alinea in larger form, so I savored the hope of discovering parallel challenges and/or lessons to be learned. What is it like to try to replicate and honor the art of someone whom you admire? What (omg what) did Adria himself think when he came to see what they had done with his legacy? What should I expect when I have the chance to serve Chef Achatz my interpretation of his own creations?? (I’m seriously kidding…I never, ever expect to do this, nor would I ever hope to. Jesus the pressure).

There was none of this to be found in the waitstaff’s script for the evening, unfortunately. I tried to ask questions that offered them space to talk in this context, but they kept their answers brief and unelaborative, no doubt keeping a sharp eye on the clock for this marathon of a meal. Delaying a minute or two per course chatting with me could tack hours onto our meal, which had a final running time of about 5 hours. But even their clipped responses had a quiet lack of enthusiasm, an absence of recognition of how excited I was determined to stay for this very exciting event.

The food itself was, as mentioned, very good for me, in the same way that I find watching early episodes of the Simpsons to be very good. I.e. it was delicious and–while not the most mind-bogglingly new thing that I’d ever seen–clearly laid the groundwork for restaurants like Alinea to build upon. I Appreciated it with an intentionally-capital A, because examples of the first foam or spherified flavor are like viewing fine art paintings for me, and I greatly respect the effort and consideration involved in replicating El Bulli’s work, the sensitivity with which one must approach interpreting or modifying aspects of things, and the sheer volume of work the chefs have sluiced through to arrive at what was a very nicely-paced and -balanced menu.

Because I think it’s a natural and honest thing for a person to want to surround themselves with other people with shared interests and passions, I dislike the idea that the relationship between staff and diners need be one-way (I also dislike the idea that bidirectionality can only be achieved with fat gratuities). I don’t like being only a taker; I like to try to offer something back–if only the most meager of gestures–and I feel comfortable showing genuine  gratitude for things. To this end, at the conclusion of our meal I paused as we exited and asked if I may step into the kitchen (as I’d seen others do) to thank Chef Beran and offer him some words of appreciation. The kitchen was largely falling quiet at this time, most of the restaurant had finished, and he was working alone at the center countertop cutting up some fish for the next day’s menu. He looked up at me (through me?) a few times, but made no effort to pause his work or acknowledge me, and though a staffmember went to whisper to him that I’d wanted to offer compliments, he forged ahead with the fish butchery until one of the staffmembers uncomfortably stuttered that he might be busy for some time and that maybe I should just leave.

We stepped next door to the Aviary for one final drink to finish the night, and I took a moment to Tweet to him my thanks, suspecting that his proximity to his phone all night would offer some immediacy to this. There has been no response.

I left feeling a little disappointed about the whole thing.

In the time since the meal, I can’t help but reflect on it heavily. I mean, I’ve been planning for this for months. The financial side of it has abbreviated other plans I might have made this year for travel with Sarah. It was hard not to want it to be 100% awesome; for it to be magic.

I find it curious that so much of my impression of the experience extends beyond just the food; is it unfair of me to regard a dining experience based on the relationship I had with the staff? Have I lost sight completely of what I should be focusing on? In addition to being virtuosos in the kitchen, do chefs also need to have reasonably nice personalities to sate my interests, and how obscenely unreasonable is that of me? Or, is the fact that I spend a lot of my reflection time trying to talk myself into or out of perspectives (“Well, Wednesday is their Monday, and everyone hates Mondays; maybe everyone was just kinda tired and not on point, and maybe tomorrow night’s diners will be just blown away” or “Maybe Chef Beran’s dog died just minutes before our meal started” or “Maybe my breath was terrible and the staff just couldn’t deal with my booze-addled questions”) just a lot of rhetoric, and maybe it’s ok for me to regard an experience as, well, an experience?

I’ve tried to be very careful to posit all of this from my own admittedly-unique perspective. I realize my expectations might have been unrealistically-high, that maybe I’m just too close to this stuff, and that my companions for dinner had a totally wonderful time themselves. I get it; this is unique to me, and I wouldn’t suggest others would experience Next this same way. I’m almost apologetic to everyone that I came away feeling this way; I feel bad about it, even, and willing to acknowledge much of it as my own doing. I will deliberate the public airing of these thoughts for a long, long time before having the courage to commit them.

What I will say strongly and without apology though is that thinking of onesself as too busy or important–as Beran seemed wont to do–to take a moment to accept gratitude and praise from someone so clearly invested in the experience of this meal is de facto lame and ungracious. I’m unmotivated to offer further enthusiasm for his work.

“I’d give it a 2, I think”, I told Sarah the next morning. “Maybe a 3. I’m not sure, honestly.”

The “would you spend this same amount of money here again?” question is particularly interesting with Next, because I was forced to buy “Season Tickets” to get access to this one meal. This means I have tickets to two more meals with them. If I didn’t already own the tickets, I wouldn’t spend this same amount of money again there. And even though I do own these other tickets, I’m not sure I’d spend the money it costs to make a special trip to Chicago for 3 days to go to these meals.

As it stands though, Sarah and I have to be back in Chicago in a month to go to a wedding, so we’ll be in town, and the meal is already paid for. At this point, I’m not sure if we’ll go, or if I’ll sell the tickets and see what else Chicago has to offer.

Honestly, for that amount of money, I’d much rather go to Alinea.

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Postscript: a few of the waitstaff offered glimmers of excitement and enthusiasm, most notably one with a nice set of dreads to whom James mentioned that I’d been working on this project and had been especially excited for this meal. The dreadlocked man turned to me with raised eyebrows and asked “Do you keep a blog?” When I (a little embarrassed) nodded in the affirmative, he asked the name and then sort of did a “Ohhhh yyyyeahhh…I think I might have heard of it?” thing in a way that didn’t inspire a ton of confidence but was generous nevertheless. (Perhaps he was thinking of Alineaphile?) As I was leaving Next, he made a point of stopping me to say “Hey keep up the blog, man. It’s cool.” I don’t know if you’re reading this, Mr. Dreads, but that was the highlight of my evening. Thank you.

 

 

Lobster, Tropical Fruits, Meyer Lemon, Heart of Palm

I’ve been eyeing this dish since early December; the photos in the book are eye-poppingly vibrant, and several of the tropical fruits were familiar to me because of time in New Zealand. Appealing too was the bulk of the recipe, which is basically “Acquire exotic fruit, cut into interesting shapes.” As I sifted through the list of ingredients though, it became clearer that this dish represents a small and rare nexus in the cycle of globally-available produce, and getting the stars to align for this moment has taken some patience.

On the plate, we have freshly-cooked lobster meat plated alongside small planks of papaya, ovals of sapote, and rings of heart of palm, all of which have been tossed in a sweet meyer lemon vinaigrette. The bites are topped with a ribbon of passion fruit ‘jam’, then garnished with dots of tamarillo pudding, coconut ribbons and dice, lemon balm leaves, thai chili rings, pineapple powder, kiwifruit slivers, and passion fruit seeds. It tastes like being at the beach, but by that I don’t mean “of dead seaweed and Banana Boat SPF 45″; rather, it’s delightfully tropical, vibrant, buoyant and refreshing, the way you imagine being at the beach is like.

Most of the tropical fruits were straightforward enough to find at Berkeley Bowl; they tend to have kiwi, passionfruit, papaya, and coconut year-round. The hardest to find was tamarillo, followed by sapote. Tamarillo was a familiar one to me in name only; they were easy to find in New Zealand during the inverted autumn/winter months starting in April, and though I never tasted one I can still picture exactly where Moore Wilson’s stocks them in the produce section. They seem pretty difficult to find in the US; they’re grown in several South American countries but no one in the Berkeley Bowl produce dept. (which is mostly comprised of Latin Americans) had ever heard of it.

After a lot of calling around and searching online for tropical fruit distributors, I ultimately used a lifeline: our friend Lesleigh was coming to visit for a few days from New Zealand. I asked her if tamarillos were showing up in markets down there, and if so could she bring me a bag of them when she came? She said they’d just started appearing a few weeks before, and the day before she flew out she went to Moore’s and snagged 10 fresh ones and loaded them carefully into a plastic container to carry on the flight with her. I had to call US Customs to verify she could get them through on her arrival without being fined; Customs calls tamarillos “Tree Tomatoes” (which is what they’re sometimes referred to in South America), so I told her to use that term if they harassed her about it at all. She made it through with only a minor arousal of suspicion and scrutiny by the Customs guards, and once settled at our apartment she brought out the container of my 10 precious tamarillos, which might now be contenders for Most Ridiculous Acquisition so far on this project.

The taste of a tamarillo is very complex; there’s a tart, acetic quality that’s very reminiscent of a cherry or roma tomato, but also layers of ‘tropicaly-ness’, reminiscent of kiwi, passionfruit, or guava. Adding salt pulls forward the tomatoey taste, while sugar brightens up the tropical flavors. It’s pretty neato.

The fruits were surprisingly dense and very firm; they’re quite pretty egg-shaped orbs about the size of a plum, and weigh a little less per fruit than those chrome chinese meditation balls. Lesleigh and Sarah both remarked that there was something very sensual about them, which I thought was peculiar enough of a comment to compel me to try to shoot them as lustfully as one could possibly shoot fruit.

At the same time I was searching for the tamarillos, I also was trying to track down white sapote. The produce guys at Berkeley Bowl recognized ‘sapote’, but had some disagreement as to when they were in season. One said they went out of season in December, another said they come into season in April/May. I wanted to be ready to pounce as soon as I got whiff of them coming in if the latter season was true, so I started going back to Berkeley Bowl every few days to watch more-closely what was drifting in and out of season. Two days before Lesleigh showed up, so did these:

This is a white sapote; it popped up in a small batch very suddenly, and seemed extremely, perfectly ripe. I thought this signified that I’d have at least another few weeks to find them in markets, but I snagged a few right then just to taste them. They were soft, like a very ripe avocado, and the interior flesh was almost custardy in texture. The taste is mild and sweet, sort of like honey and pear.

When Lesleigh arrived, I wanted to hang out with her and her kids rather than mess around in the kitchen, so I needed to do something to hold the tamarillos. I read that they freeze well, so I vacuum-sealed them and put them in the freezer. I knew this would make them mushy, but ultimately I was going to puree them in a blender anyway so I didn’t think it would matter much.

After Lesleigh left, I went back to Berkeley Bowl…to find the white sapotes gone. I asked and was told that had been the only batch their supplier had provided, but to keep checking back as they might come back into season. At this point I was feeling a little bummed about this, and also completely perplexed by how Alinea was able to keep this dish on a menu for 3 months in the middle of winter. Tamarillo is a wintertime fruit in New Zealand (summer in the US), and sapote seems to be a springtime fruit; I don’t quite understand how this dish falls into their winter menu.

At any rate, I went back into a holding pattern, checking Berkeley Bowl every few days like some kind of little lost sapote-craving puppy. Finally one friday afternoon I saw a sign in the tropical fruit section for Sapote, and found this:

It’s a Mamey Sapote; a bit bigger than the white sapote, and not quite ripe yet. The recipe specifically calls for white sapote, so I had a few minutes of indecision. Even being fully aware of how ridiculous this internal debate was, there was still a part of me that was all “I’ve waited this long, why not continue being patient so that I can do this totally perfectly?” I decided to take a slightly different tack: I’d tasted the white sapote, which sort of made it less of a white whale in my head, so I got the mamey sapote, and also decided to buy every other tropical fruit that looked nice. I figure this dish really seems to be about capturing a moment of the year when all this produce is at its best, and Alinea certainly wouldn’t not do the dish if one ingredient weren’t available. So I’d take stock of what looked good, and also the opportunity to try as many crazy tropical fruits as I could.

Produce sourced, I had one last thing to take care of: I needed a live female Maine lobster.

The recipe doesn’t explain why I should be preferring female lobsters, but I asked for one nevertheless. Then it was home to start cooking.

My friend Katie recently recommended a pretty awesome book that was timely to this dish. The book is a collection of essays and memoirs that are wildly compelling. The eponymous essay in the book revolves around the author being hired by a magazine to attend a lobster festival in New England; the first 2/3 or so of the essay is innocuous enough, but Wallace eventually runs right off the rails as he starts wondering aloud about the morality and ethics of killing live lobsters. My friend Jess and I once tried cooking live crab, and Jess felt that the most humane way to kill the crabs was by putting them in cool water and bringing the pot up to temperature slowly, so that it just ‘fell asleep’. Wallace makes note that sea creatures breathe sea water, not tap water, so this attempt at gentle euthanasia in actuality involves drowning the creature slowly. He notes that others have claimed that because lobsters have a decentralized nervous system, they aren’t capable of feeling pain and therefore the thrusting into boiling water isn’t something they can sense. But he points out that surely-obvious are the lobsters’ sudden and obviously desperate movements when this happens, and that we could all probably agree that–at best–the lobster seems suddenly uncomfortable, right? So maybe that shoots the decentralized nervous system theory all to hell? His essay is utterly inconclusive as to what the ‘best’ way to handle this is, and rather than trying to posit a solution, he gets lost in a sea of worry and curiosity as to how people reconcile this to themselves. It’s an amazing essay in that he’s so transparent and honest about the moral conundrum this assignment has thrust upon him, and reading him thrash about is funny, tender, and compelling all at once.

So, this is where my head was at when I got to this point.

I can’t really sweeten this story up: the recipe instructed me to pour boiling water over the lobster and let it steep for several minutes, and yes, it seemed immediately uncomfortable the moment I did this. Technique and theory get thrown out the window in raw moments like this for me, and instead my head fixes firmly on what I’ve just done. It doesn’t feel very good, but I think that’s a good thing. Like Keller and his rabbits, the experience just makes me want to stay focused and do a really good job with this; I want to earn it.

After the minutes passed, I lifted the lobster out and broke it down.

I wanted to keep the natural shape of the meat as intact as possible, which involved some very tedious and careful shell-cracking to get at the claw meats. The meat comes out with some coagulated protein clinging to it, which is totally harmless but not very visually-appealing. So, after separating all the meat, I rinsed them gently in salt water until the white stuff was gone, then held them in the refrigerator while I continued working through the rest of the recipe.

I took my tamarillos from the freezer and let them thaw (mostly), then pureed them in the blender. The recipe indicates that I should have ‘tamarillo juice’ at this point, but I ended up with a very thick, extremely-aerated tamarillo paste of sorts. I’m not sure if this was a result of the freezing process, but it was very stiff, almost like a meringue.

I passed the puree through a tamis to separate out the seeds and skins…

…and ended up with something that was very fluffy and puddinglike in consistency. This gave me pause, because from here I was meant to cook this with agar, then puree it in a blender to, well, a pudding-like consistency. Did I really need to continue processing this if it already had the consistency I wanted?

I decided to hedge my bets, and split the batch in two. One half went into a squeeze bottle; I wanted to see if it held its consistency or if it collapsed. I brought the other half to a boil and mixed in sugar, salt, and agar. As it heated, the air bubbles started to collapse and the mixture took on a more liquid consistency, which made it easier to mix in the agar. I let this set, then blended it. The puree was a little chunky, which is what I usually get when I’ve used too much agar. But the taste, to me, seemed less interesting. Several of the more subtle notes had fallen out with the high heat application, and I think I liked the raw puree taste better. Or, at least to me, it tasted more pure and less overworked. I wonder if I stumbled onto something useful by accident here?

The next step was to make ‘passion fruit sheets’. I did this once before a few years back with raspberries and it worked beautifully. It’s a really neat trick: basically you make something that at room temperature is jamlike in consistency, but when cooled it gels. You freeze this gel, cut it into strips, and lay the strips over your ingredients. As the sheet warms, it drapes over the ingredients and ultimately turns back into the original jammy consistency. It looks as though you’ve somehow spooned this incredibly precise ribbon of sauce over everything.

This recipe mentions I’m to start with 40 passion fruits, which at $2.59 a pop at Berkeley Bowl seemed a little excessively expensive to me, not to mention Berkeley Bowl never seems to carry more than just a dozen or so at a time. Rather than go that route, I ordered some passion fruit puree:

The puree is meant to be heated with gelatin, then ‘spread’ on a sheet of acetate and frozen. I use the annoying quotes because even with the addition of gelatin, my mixture stayed very liquid. I realized the ratio of gelatin specified would never form a gel (usually one needs 1 sheet of gelatin to gel 100g of liquid, and this recipe uses 6 sheets to 800g puree), so I needed to do some debugging. The raspberry recipe used the same proportion of gelatin, but started with whole raspberries, which when heated form something way thicker than just liquid raspberry juice. I figured this was from pectin, and because I was using a processed puree, I had no idea how much (if any) pectin was even in this mixture I was working with.

So, I started doing some experimenting. I have three types of pectin, and only the most basic understanding of their differences. Arbitrarily, I grabbed LM pectin, which the Texture handbook tells me gels in the presence of calcium.  I have some Calcium Ascorbate (buffered vitamin C) that I figured might work for this, so I just started adding it and the pectin and whisking to see what would happen. The mixture thickened slightly but never really took on the jammy, saucelike consistency I wanted. I tried adding more gelatin, but that only ended up giving me something too ‘gelatiny’…more like a fruit- rollup than a sauce. If the mixture is too gel-like, it’s obvious that I’ve just laid a sheet of gel over everything on the plate and it’s not nearly as magical. I felt confident that the pectin was the right direction to be looking, I just needed to figure out how to make it work properly.

I realized that working with LM (and NH) pectins, which both involve the need for calcium, meant trying to solve for two variables at once. So I switched to HM pectin (or yellow pectin, it’s sometimes called). This gels in the presence of sugar, which was way easier for me to estimate. After a few more tries, I ended up with something that at room temperature was the consistency of smooth jam and when cooled set into a gel.

I took one crappy photo of a test I kept doing throughout this process…I’d freeze a bit of the mixture and then drape the frozen sheet over a spoon to see how it behaved when it warmed. You can see here a pretty obvious difference: on the left is the pectin mixture, and on the right is a mixture that had too much gelatin in it. You can kinda picture how each of these would feel in your mouth when eaten, or how they’d behave when poked at with a spoon.

Finally satisfied with my passionfruit mixture, I settled into the super-fun part: cutting a bunch of shit up. I started with a coconut, which–not matter how many times I do it–always makes me feel like a total Survivorman badass. It’s so super-fun! Here’s how do to it: we start with a young coconut, which oftentimes is wrapped tightly in plastic and has much of the near-white fibrous coconut husk still attached. This husk can be shaved off easily with a knife…I like to use my cleaver for it. Just let the contour of the hard inner coconut guide the knife. You don’t want to cut into the hard coconut yet…you just want to give him a little shave to clean him up.

You’ll eventually be able to see three seams running down the length of the coconut. Using the back of your cleaver, tap along the length of each one from one pole of the nut to the other. Be firm but don’t go nuts…you want to cause stress fractures, not bash a giant hole in it. Eventually the tapping causes natural tension in the coconut to pop the shell open. Have a bowl under your hands as you do this; as soon as it pops open, the fluid inside will stream out. Then you can use the cleaver to wedge open the coconut, and use a spoon to scoop out the flesh.

I diced some of the coconut flesh into small cubes, and cut the rest into thin ribbons.

Then, it was on to the orgy of cutting up a bunch of tropical fruits. The book doesn’t specify what kind of papaya to use, and since I’d never eaten papaya before, I bought a few varieties. This one is apparently the most common variety; green-to-yellow when ripe, with large black interior seeds.

I also found a “Thai cooking papaya”, which was larger and firmer with interesting white seeds, but the flesh was very firm and not really suited to eating raw.

These are Chirimoya; the interior flesh is very soft and can be eaten with a spoon. There’s a slightly odd funky smell just under the super-sweet smell of the fruit when ripe, but the taste is delicious.

This awesome thing is a Dragonfruit; the exterior of this particular one is a little beaten up, but it’s still ripe and the interior is in good shape (and pretty wild). The flavor of this is very mild, but the texture is neat; it’s sort of like a mealy pear mixed with sesame seeds.

This is a passionfruit; Sarah and I became addicted to these in New Zealand, where there was always a big bowl of them at work in the morning. They’re very tart and sweet, extremely candy-like. They look a little gross inside the first time you see one, but the flavor quickly overshadows that. The seeds are crispy, almost like a potato chip or like they’ve been deep-fried or something. Cut one open and just scoop out the interior with a spoon and eat it all. For this dish I needed to separate the pulp from the seeds, which would be used individually during plating.

To cut up the kiwifruit, I peeled them with a vegetable peeler, then used the natural (and very subtle) divisions in the fruit to remove very thin slivers containing single layers of seeds. You can see the striations of the fruit most-clearly at the poles.

This is my first time working with hearts of palm, but several upcoming dishes use it so I was excited to try it out here. I know that the most common way of finding hearts of palm is canned, but that’s been cooked and–from what I’ve read–isn’t the same as working with fresh. Berkeley Bowl has these in the produce section, which I imagine is sort of in-between buying fresh and canned. There’s some liquid in the package, but it doesn’t seem like it’s cooked. The hearts are crunchy and raw-tasting; not quite as crunchy as celery, more like a water chestnut. The flavor is refreshing and light and familiar to me, but articulating why eludes me. While these guys are perfectly fine in a pinch, I really want to try to source some fresh heart of palm in the future, just to compare.

When I cut into the Mamey sapote, it looked quite a bit different from the white one. It also wasn’t ripe enough to eat, so after all that I ended up not being able to use it. But the smell of this thing is incredible. It smells like nutmeg and sweet potato and allspice; it’s the craziest-smelling fruit I’ve ever, um, smelled. I had bought two, so even though I had to throw this one out after cutting into it, I waited for the other to ripen, which it did a few days later. The interior had turned a deep red-orange, similar to a yam, and the scent had intensified. It’s sweet, but not cloyingly-so relative to the other tropical fruits here. The flesh is soft like an avocado and I could eat it with a spoon. If you can find one, definitely try it!

And finally, the “That Shit Cray” award goes to this guy: a Kiwano–or Horned Melon–from New Zealand:

In a million years I would never have guessed from the outside what the inside of this thing looked like:

The interior seeds are similar to fresh pumpkin seeds, only much smaller. Each seed is encased in a gelatinous little pouch, which is filled with juice. I was so surprised by it that it took me a few minutes to even think of what I might do with it. I could probably do some interesting and fun things with the juice itself (maybe make Kiwano Puffs like the Cinnamon Puffs from a while back, or a sorbet), but everything else in this dish doesn’t stray too far from its original form, so I wanted to process it as minimally as I could. So I cut small holes in a few of the seed packets and removed the seeds, leaving a little gelatinous ‘envelope’ behind. I did this for maybe 40 or so of them, then put the rest of the seed packets into a blender and blended them on very low speed just to break open the packets and release the juice. This was strained, and I put my reserved intact seed packets into the juice to let them absorb it until time to plate.

Here’s mise en place for most of the tropical fruits…

…then “put everything on a plate and try to make it look pretty”.

The powder here is freeze-dried pineapple that I crushed in my mortar and pestle.

To play with shapes, I cut the dragonfruit into 1″-thick discs, then used a plastic drinking straw to poke out long thing cylinders. I plated several of the kiwano seed packets nearby.

 

Opah in the Style of Bacon, Endive, Radicchio

Bacon is as uncomplicated to make as it is to stuff rampantly down one’s gullet: a cut of pork (usually the belly in the US, called “streaky bacon” in European countries–including New Zealand–where leaner side or back cuts are preferred) is cured or brined in a concentrated solution of salt and other flavorings. After the brining process, bacon can be sliced and cooked directly, or (as is more common in the US) smoked before slicing for further flavor. Making one’s own bacon at home is actually fairly-straighforward; it’s one of the simplest recipes noted in the Charcuterie  book.

Why not apply this process to other cuts of meat? This dish is built around exactly that: a fatty cut of fish is cured with salt and other flavorings, sliced thinly, and pan-fried to delicious crispness. The relative lightness of the protein is complimented with equally-light accompaniments: braised white beans, braised endive, radicchio, candied kumquats, orange sauce, tarragon, and juniper.

I started with the white bean puree, which meant soaking some dried great northern white beans overnight.

The next morning, I packed the beans in two vacuum bags along with juniper berries, olive oil, rosemary, and some butter. These were cooked en sous vide for several hours, until they were tender enough to smoosh with my fingers.

After cooking, I strained out the braising liquid into a container. The Alinea book doesn’t mention the need to separate out the juniper berries and rosemary sprig/leaves, which I did to help yield a perfectly smooth puree without any gritty bits (a mistake I’d made once before when making white bean puree).

The recipe instructs me to combine some of the beans with what seemed like an enormous amount of salt, and blend on high speed for 8 minutes. I find I’ve developed a small but decently-reliable gut reaction to things that don’t seem exactly right, and rather than trying to google around for cookbook errata or corrections, I tend to slow down and creep up on the thing in question…in this case, the salt and the mixing time. I’ve oversalted stuff enough times to know when an amount seems really big, so I just seasoned the puree to taste and left it at that. But I was curious about the super-long mixing time, so I pushed it a bit.

White beans, like potatoes, rice, wheat and other starchy foods, are comprised of cells filled with…well, starch. If the integrity of the cells fails, the starch leaks out; this is bad news because starch has adhesive properties (starch is quite literally the main adhesive in most paper-use glues…like wallpaper paste). If you’ve ever had gummy mashed potatoes or sticky rice, you’ve experienced this phenomenon. Overcooked potatoes (which produce too-weak cell walls, which give way easily when agitated) or potatoes whipped with a hand mixer at high speed (which ruptures the cells) often yield sticky potatoes. I was a little curious if something similar would happen with the beans, and sure enough:

The bean puree turned gummy, and in turn separated from the oil that I’d blended into the mixture, yielding something looking like a broken mayonnaise. It was also extremely glue-y. After a lot of scrubbing to clean out my blender pot, I started again, the second time being careful cut off the blending just when things seemed nice and smooth. It tasted great; junipery and herbaceous and buttery and warm.

The next few steps involved working with citrus, and because I like drinking beer, I decided to try this one:

It was interesting in that it a) had nice subtle tropical fruit notes, and b) had ‘something else’ that I’ve tasted in my homebrew beer adventures before. Either this means my homebrew beers aren’t as mediocre as I thought, or this beer is more mediocre than Mikkeller usually offers. I’m not sure which one I want to believe more.

At any rate, on to making orange sauce. I started by quartering some oranges and cooking them en sous vide for several more hours. Berkeley Bowl had a nice big batch of Cara Red oranges when I visited last week, so i decided to try them. They have a nice grapefruity-orange tart flavor and a really pretty color.

A past dish I’ve made from this book involved pureeing some oranges straight-up in a blender (without any cooking). Doing this yields a nice puree, but when I refrigerated it the rind seemed to settle and form an incredibly firm plug in my squeeze bottle–so firm I had to throw the whole thing away. I wasn’t quite sure what I did wrong, but I was nervous that I’d end up with something similar here. It turned out, though, that the cooking process causes something to happen such that the final puree stays liquid when refrigerated. The texture after blending was a little chunky, but the recipe goes on to instruct me to mix the puree with some orange juice to smooth things out.

Next I braised some belgian endive leaves in a mixture of white wine vinegar, shallot, and juniper. I did a mix of red and white endives only because I really liked the leaves of the red ones and thought they might look nice. The final braised leaves tasted amazing but were incredibly delicate; they tore easily, which made plating a little rough.


Finally,  the fish. I started with a few loin slices of Opah, a tropical fish that–in winter months–is particularly tasty due to its increased fat marbling. I found this at Berkeley Bowl, and got help form the butcher in selecting some nicely-marbled cuts. These were brined for several hours in a mixture of water, salt, honey, and juniper: our “fish bacon cure”.

The fish was then removed, rinsed, and frozen overnight until it was firm enough to slice on…TA DA! A (borrowed) meat slicer! A friend from work owns this and loaned it to me for this dish. Two slices into it, Sarah asked skeptically “So…how is it?”

“TOTALLY AWESOME I WANT ONE!”

“Great.”

Honestly, there’s no substitute. I’ve always used a knife for this kind of stuff historically, being opposed by proxy to buying my own meat slicer. But…right tool for the job and all.

The recipe directs me to slice the fish into 1/8″ slices. This is thick-sliced bacon country. I tried a few of these, and fried them in a pan with some canola oil (the fish, despite being fatty, still carries way less fat than bacon, so I needed to augment this with some oil to help the frying process along).

Honestly I didn’t really love the thickness of that slice; it didn’t curl up in a visually-interesting way, and it had enough body to sort of taste like, well, thick dry fish. I tried slicing several more portions, each progressively-smaller. The last was as thin as a slice of prosciutto. I fried all of these to compare:

The thicker slices had more body, but the thin ones were incredibly crispy. It was a funny moment for me to realize that this is sort of like the deal with real bacon: everyone’s ideal bacon slice is different. My dad’s bacon was always shatteringly crisp when he cooked it on Sunday mornings, and the way he taught me to cook it is still the way I do so. Sarah likes hers a little thicker and floppier and less crispy. In the end, I aimed for the middle ground; still crisp enough to hold its shape, but not so thin as to be more like a potato chip than a slice of meat.

While the bacon was draining, I picked a few fresh tarragon leaves, and left them in ice water for a few minutes before plating.

When I plated everything and tasted it, my first reaction was “Neat!” The fish flavor is definitely present, but not overtly-so. Smoking the fish (in the US style of bacon) would overwhelm the subtle flavors imparted by the brining process, though I bet a bit of smoked salt wouldn’t hurt anything. I used the crispy bacon slices almost like utensils, scooping up various mouthfuls of the white beans, orange sauce, cooked kumquats, and tarragon sprigs to taste together. The flavors all work really well, and while I was a little worried that this is supposedly a Winter dish and that it would taste too heavy for the first warm days of spring we’re having in the bay area, it didn’t at all. It struck that amazing middle ground that Alinea seems to effortlessly be able to hit: something that’s delicious and bursting with flavor without being heavy and filling and ‘slow’. This is bright and peppy and leaves one ready for what’s next, which is what I’m on to now…

Things Organized Neatly

This project’s ‘hard stuff’ factor has entered a new phase for me; one that largely revolves around planning. As I close in on the last quarter of the book, there are fewer dishes to choose from on short notice, and every dish is more-involved than most other I’ve tried so far. The techniques are more familiar to me, but still difficult is finding ingredients, especially super-seasonal ones. E.g. I’ve spent the past 2 months carefully watching produce drift in and out of season at various markets for a lobster dish I hope to cook soon.

I was remarking to Sarah this past weekend that this is stressing me out a little; it’s hard, and short of driving or calling around to every market every day or two to check on produce arrivals, I’m not sure how best to plan the remaining dishes. Because Sarah’s awesome, she surprised me the other day with something: she’d compiled all remaining recipes into a 4-page spreadsheet, broken into seasons and outlining all ingredients and equipment I’ll need from here on out. I think my next step is to cross-reference all the ingredients into another sheet with calendar months, so I know on any given day what dishes are reasonable to shop for.

We both agree that the Wild Bass dish might be my Everest.

Incidentally, I’ve also spent some time doing a similar treatment for another project that I intend to try at some point…